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Wednesday, July 7, 2010

The Birth of Alexander

I woke up on the morning of Sunday June 27, 2010 at 41 weeks and 1 day pregnant and knew in my heart it was time for Alexander to arrive. I looked down at my belly as I have done so often in my pregnancy and began to speak with my child. I explained to him that today it was time and that I felt it was important for us to meet. After speaking with my little one I turned to my husband and said the same thing he patted my belly and kissed me and told me it would happen.

My midwife gave me the all clear to take Castor Oil to induce labor at any point after 41 weeks. My plan was to wait until Tuesday the 29th but I decided I would take it on this day. I called my birth center and spoke with the midwife on call she gave me instructions on how to take the Castor Oil and told me to call if I went into labor. About an hour later Marsha, the midwife who was set to deliver my baby called me and said she wanted to come by my house and check my cervix. I took the Castor Oil and waited for Marsha. Before she arrived I had thrown up the Castor Oil I had taken that morning. When Marsha arrived she said I still had a closed cervix and we decided that the scar tissue I had from a previous procedure was preventing my cervix from dilating. Marsha used her finger to push pass the scar tissue and she was able to get me open to 1 centimeter. She also swept my membranes and told me to take another dose of Castor Oil later that afternoon.

Amir and I went out ran a few errands and I took a second dose of Castor Oil about 2pm. I assumed it had not worked because outside of going to the bathroom a few times I had not felt anything. I spoke with Marsha and she agreed the Castor Oil didn't sound like it worked and we set a plan for the morning for me to come in and see her at the Birth Center to try another natural induction method. The goal was to avoid medical induction which was scheduled for later that week.

At about 5pm I started feeling some irregular contractions that came every 10 minutes apart. They were not painful and I managed to get a nap in at this time. I woke up about 7:30pm ate dinner and just laid around watching TV with Amir still thinking that nothing was going to happen. About 12am Amir told me I should get some rest since I had an appt in the morning so I agreed and settled in to get some sleep. All of a sudden I feel a kick from the baby and hear a pop and have the urge to use the bathroom. I got up and told Amir that did not feel normal and went into our bathroom. Once I sat on the toilet I was certain my water had broken. I called Amir and asked if it looked like that to him and he said absolutely.

I called Marsha and told her my water had broken but my contractions were still very irregular. She told me to try and sleep before active labor really started going and to give her a call in the morning, unless I needed to call her sooner. Regular contractions started almost immediately coming every 5 minutes apart. I labored at home until about 5am before we called Marsha and agreed it was time to head to the birthing center. We arrived at the birthing center about 5:30am and my Birthing Assistant Kelly was already there. Kelly got us set up in a room and helped me get comfortable. At this point my contractions are about 3 minutes apart. Marsha arrives and checks my progress I am 1 and half centimeters she opens me to two but said she noticed the baby's head was not dropping down into the pelvis as it should be. She said that as labor progressed we would keep and eye on that and see what was going on. His heart rate was fine and at this point he was handling my contractions like a champ. At about 7:30am Marsha checked me again and I was now 3 centimeters. I decided to get into the tub and I labored there for a few hours and then got up and walked around. After Several hours my contractions were coming on top of each other and I was feeling a great deal of pressure. The most comfortable place for me to handle a contraction was sitting on the toilet because I felt like I had to go to the bathroom. This should have been a GREAT sign!! It was now after 12pm and I had not been checked in awhile. Based on the way I was feeling I was praying I was in transition. This is where things take a huge turn. Marsha checks me and I am still the same 3 centimeters I was 5 hours ago but my contractions had become so intense. We checked the baby's heart rate and it was dropping with contractions. Also he still had not engaged any lower into the Pelvic bone.

It is at this point Marsha gives me the advice I feared most. She wanted to go to the hospital. She said she had a strong feeling I would need a C-section but that maybe I just needed to try and epidural and relax more. It had been hours and the baby simply was not coming down. She said her suspicion was he would not. I trust Marsha with all my heart and her reputation is never to send patients to the hospital unless she thinks it is absolutely necessary so to the hospital we went. Laboring in the car was HORRIBLE and I am sure I scared Amir because I was screaming with every contraction and kept asking if we were almost there.

We arrived at the hospital at about 1pm and by 2pm I had an epidural. I was very upset about this but felt that if this was going to help me get the vaginal birth I desired than it was worth it. Marsha and Kelly stayed with me the entire time I was in the hospital which I am so grateful for there was even a point where they needed to advocate for me. A resident came in checked me and I was 4 centimeters and told me i had not dilated in hours and needed pitocin. I of course did not want that. Both Marsha and Kelly pointed out that this was ridiculous. My contractions were coming very strong and on top of each other. Even with an epidural I felt every contraction and the urge to push. Additionally they pointed out that the strength of my contractions was very difficult for baby already pitocin would only make that worse. The resident said nothing else and said he would get the doctor. Before the doctor came in the check on me Alex's heart rate dropped tremendously a few times I know one time it was below 60 which made me extremely nervous.

The Doctor came in to check me about 5 and said that he did not like the baby's heart rate and it was making him extremely nervous. His recommendation was a C-Section as his suspicion was that the babys cord was wrapped around his neck and that was what was preventing him from dropping lower into my pelvic bone like he needed too. My heart dropped this was my BIGGEST fear for this pregnancy and I really did not want surgery. I looked around the room and everyone, Marsha, Kelly and Amir agreed this was best for Alexander. In my heart I knew it was what was best as well. I had to wait awhile for the surgery because there was someone ahead of me and I cried. I cried because this birth I worked so hard to plan was going wrong in so many ways. I cried because some how I felt this was my fault and maybe I had given up and I cried because I was scared out of my MIND. I had never even broken a bone before and now I am being told in the next few hours I am going be having major abdominal surgery. I kept thinking of all the bad things I had read and all the possibilities of what could go wrong.

At 6:30pm I was prepped for surgery and the Doctor ran through the procedure with me. I was very happy because she made it clear she would do everything in her power to assure I was able to have a VBAC in the future. My birth plan had been read and they understood my concerns! I was still very scared. Amir was handed some scrubs and I was wheeled down to an OR. The whole surgery was surreal to me your awake but your whole body feels like its on pins and needles and although you can not feel the pain of the surgery you can definitely feel that they are working on you. I felt every tug and push and all kinds of pressure and even as they go through the process I am still scared. Then I hear the cry of my son and I look up and see this beautiful baby being held over the divider and all I can do is CRY. My fear is no longer my concern but my son is. Amir jumped up and ran to take pictures. They suctioned him out and brought him to lay on my chest and from that moment forward my world had changed. I immediately no longer cared about myself as a priority but my new little boy.

Alexander Kelson Greene was born via C-Section on Monday, June 28, 2010 at 7:01pm. He was 6lbs. 150z and 20 inches long. It was determined that he was unable to drop down into my pelvic bone was because of the cord as well as his position. Despite all the methods I had tried he returned back to his posterior position that he was in a few weeks prior to birth. The position prevented him from passing any further in the pelvic bone and my poor baby actually had some bruises and scrapes from being stuck the way he was in my pelvis. I am so in love with this little boy. After surgery I was taken back to my room where I was able to breast feed immediately. I can honestly say I don't think my boy has left my side since.

I stayed in the hospital for 4 days and recovery has been OK. I admit that when I am in pain or am slow getting things done I get upset because I remember that this isn't the way it was suppose to be. I had a long talk with my Birth Assistant and with Marsha and they both assured me that they felt this birth was suppose to end this way and there was nothing I did wrong. My son had his own plan. I am getting over the whole C-section thing and the more I look at my son the more I fall in love with him and the more I forget about the birth because we are now moving on to a whole new chapter. My life as a new mother!!!




Friday, June 25, 2010

Update

So we have a game plan! I will be 41 weeks tomorrow and can only remain pregnant until 42 weeks so induction will be done a week from today if Alex is not out on his own.

In the mean time I have an appt Tuesday morning where I will be taking Castor Oil under the supervision of my midwife and I will also have my cervix/membranes stretched and swept to induce labor I am hoping this works. If that doesn't work Thursday morning my midwife will insert Cervidil as a last resort and finally on Friday or Thursday night I will be in the hospital being administered Pitocin which I absolutely want to avoid so PLEASE pray for me. I really think I am holding back the inevitable tears/breakdown because I really don't get why my body won't do this on its own.

I am scared and frustrated and a lot of those around me have not helped to make me feel any better but I am not giving up hope and if I can help it Alexander will be a JUNE baby, meaning he will be here by Wednesday!

Thursday, June 17, 2010

I am going to be pregnant FOREVER!!!!

OK hopefully not. But I just had my 39/40 week appt today and I have NOOOOO progress. Not dilated still only about 50% effaced and soft cervix. I am so discouraged and wish I didn't even get the internal exam. But baby is doing fine and my due date is SATURDAY. I have a Non Stress Test and Ultrasound scheduled for next week.

I am getting extremely frustrated with those around me it seems that people keep rushing my baby. Granted I want him here YES but I also am trying extremely hard to be patient and realize he will come when he is ready. So the "your still pregnant" or "When will they induce you" comments are a bit overwhelming and a tad bit annoying. I actually got into a debate earlier with someone who told me I was wrong for letting that annoy me! Since when do others get the right to tell you how you can feel?

Tomorrow is my last day of work YAY!!!

Thats all I got for now....

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

An Amazing Birth Story

So I spend a lot of time on this website called thebump.com. The site has message boards where you can discuss pregnancy and other things related to motherhood. There was a woman who was not to far behind me in pregnancy who was preparing to give birth at The Farm in Tennessee. Ever since Porcha told me about this place where she delivered her daughter I have been captivated by Farm stories and love to read them. Ina May is one of those women I think very highly of and she truly shapes my thoughts on birth.

Any who the woman on thebump had her baby at the end of May and I just read her EXTREMELY long birth story. If you have the time its definitely well worth the read. Funny thing about her story as I read her story she speaks of a woman named Claudia who was present for her birth. My Birthing Assistant was on the Farm at the time of this birth and I am almost positive this is the Claudia she is referring too.

Here is her story.

Saturday, June 12, 2010

39 Week Survey

I dont do these often but I am Hoping and PRAYING this is my last one lol.

How far along? 39weeks

How big is baby? somewhere between 5 and 8 lbs midwife said she highly doubts he is even 7 lbs lol

Weight gain/loss? At my last appt I lost 3 lbs but I think thats because the weight I gained the week before was due to swelling. I am officially 129 and I started at 105 (Yes I know I am tiny but look I am 4"11 how much do you expect me to weigh??? LOL)

Maternity clothes? exclusively

Stretchies? Amir of course noticed the ones that have developed around my belly button

Sleep? I think I got up almost EVERY hour last night lol. Various reasons lack of comfort, had to pee, cold, hot lol

Best moment this week? Baby changing his position!

Movement? All day everyday

Food cravings? None Although Ice Cream still always sounds great.

Food adversions/foods that make me sick? None

Gender? Boy

Labor signs? Contractions come and go they get me excited and then they disappear!

Belly button in or out? Out....Someone told me it may not go back in :-(

What I miss? Not feeling so BIG

What I am looking forward to? Baby coming!

Milestones? 7 days until my EDD

New things this week? nothing

Weekly Wisdom? Try not to let the last few weeks overwhelm you and stress you everything will work out! I am a bit of a control freak and was starting to panic when I realized things do not have to go my way lol

Emotions? I can cry at the drop of a dime these days!

Thursday, June 10, 2010

38/39 Week Appt

Since I have been going to my appts at the 5 day mark next weeks appt will be considered my 40 week appt instead of 39. If I have to go in again past that 40 week appt I have to have an ultrasound and Non Stress Test to check on my little man. I can go to 41w6d without being induced so this one NEEDS to come when he is suppose to lol.

Any who todays appt was GREAT!!!

Baby is no longer posterior WooHoo!! I was so worried about the labor his position would cause and I am so happy he turned. I definitely think the Chiropractor helped.
Also one of the benefits in birthing at a Birth Center was that I would not have to be hooked up to an IV but I was told a few weeks ago I tested GBS positive and would need to get antibiotics during labor which meant I needed an IV. I was really sad about this as I HATE IVs. I was told today that I tested positive at 12 weeks and the antibiotics they gave me then treated it. When they tested me at 36 weeks i was negative so I do not need antibiotics!!! I am so happy.

Thats it on the appt front. I wont have another internal until maybe next week so I am not sure of any progress to my cervix. Let's keep our fingers crossed I go in BEFORE my next appt lol.

Heres a quick pic comparison. One is 33 weeks and the other 38. I can not believe how big I got in only 5 weeks!


Wednesday, June 2, 2010

My Stubborn child

So I may or may not have mentioned in the past that my little man is "Sunny Side Up" or Posterior. What this means is even though he is head down his back is to mine and that is still not a proper birthing position.

A baby ready to deliver should be positioned like this:






Mine is positioned like this:



I was being patient because I figured he would eventually turn around and get into a proper position as we near closer to my due date. I guess I was wrong because he is STILL posterier. What does this mean? It puts me at risk for a longer harder labor, It also puts me at risk for a labor that can be more painful and possibly stall. Stalled labor can lead to a C-Section which I think we all know for me is NOT an option if it is in ANY way preventable.

So what can I do....I am going to a chiropracter Saturday that specializes in rotating babies. He came highly recommended from our Bradley Instructor, Midwife and our Birthing Assistant. I am also doing specific excercises daily to get this baby to turn. Otherwise I am just going to pray about it. As birth nears I hear more and more comments about how my decision to birth the way I have chosen is crazy and I "will change my mind" this is not going to happen.

I am believe it or not looking forward to labor and delivery. Amir told me last night he wants to catch the baby which is something I am SO excited about. The dad had 3 responsibilities according to Claudia our Birth Assistant. They are Catch the baby, Call or Confirm the sex of the baby, and Cut the cord. I know some people dont care about those things but Amir playing an active role in bringing our son into this world means SOOOO much to me. When we first met Claudia Amir said he was in no way doing any of the above mentioned. He said he MAY cut the cord. I never mentioned it again I felt this was his choice and his wish. So last night when this came up again and Amir said he absolutely intended to do all three I was so happy!!! I really can not wait for this baby and that includes laboring abd delivering my child the way I have always intended. YES I know it will hurt but it will be absolutely worth it when I am holding Alexander in my arms!!