So I am having a hard time with the absence of my period. Its depressing me. I cant think of a time pre-birth control that I had a cycle over 30 days. I am now at day 31 and just really getting sad at the idea that it can be even longer. I know I am not pregnant so why can't it just show up so I can try again. I am dealing with some resentment also today. I am just resentful that I listened to Amir and didn't follow my first instinct to get off birth control sooner. I feel like this is gonna cause us to take forever to get pregnant. I am also just not understanding why people who don't want to be pregnant or shouldn't be pregnant for whatever reason always end up pregnant? and why is it so hard for those who want it so bad to conceive?
I am also so upset because I am gaining so much weight and I dont know why.... I am really worried about that. I need to find a away to get that under control.
I am just really sad....
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About Me
- Simply Me...
- I am a 26 year old woman married to my best friend. I am also a new mom of a beautiful baby boy, Alexander Kelson, who I can not get enough of! 3 months after the birth of my son I was diagnosed with Invasive Ductal Carcinoma of the Breast or "Breast Cancer."
Breast Cancer Timeline:
- 09/2009 Discover a small lump in my breast. Disregard as me being anal and never look back.
- 10/2009 BFP!!!
- 03/2010 Realize the lump in my breast has now gotten pretty large
- 04/2010 Visit Doctor she sends me for an Ultrasound. Ultrasound reveals a "cystic mass." I am told I can get the mass aspirator after I give birth.
- 06/2010 Visit a Lactation Consultant to discuss concerns about the "cyst" interfering with Breast feeding she encourages me to go see a breast surgeon immediately. So I make an appointment for June 28, 2010.
- 06/28/2010 Oooops Miss my appt with the Breast Surgeon because...ALEX is born!!
- 09/27/2010 Finally go see Dr. Teal who decides to immediately do a biopsy of the mass. I can already sense the concern.
- 09/29/2010 DX with Invasive Ductal Carcinoma in the Right Breast. Cancer is at a stage 2a. Have immediate Mammogram and Ultrasound done. Both reveal suspicious Lymph Node.
- 09/30/2010 Stop Breastfeeding in order to receive a radioactive injection for Breast Scans. Also have a Biopsy of suspicious Lymph Node done. Surgery set.
- 10/12/2010 Due to family history and age we choose to have a bilateral mastectomy with immediate reconstruction. With nipple sparing on the left side.
- 10/19/2010 Drains removed!!
- 11/3/2010 Second surgery due to death of my nipple :-(
- 11/5/2010 Medi port inserted.
- 11/8/2010 Plastic Surgeon gives the all clear to start Chemo. Return to work after a month long Hiatus.
- 11/10/2010 Meet with fertility specialist to discuss options for preserving fertility. After a long heart to heart we decide to take our chances with doing nothing.
- 11/18/2010 Begin first half of Chemo. Adriamycin and Cytoxan biweekly with a Nulesta injection on day 2, for 8 weeks.
- 12/2/2010 Minor set back :-( Infection in right tissue expander immediate surgery to remove expander and hospital stay
1 comment:
I'm so sorry you're feeling so sad right now. My first cycle off BCP was 31 days and those since have been btw 21days (only once), then 26-28 days. You never know - yours might get shorter, too. Hang in there! Try not to worry too much (I won't say stay positive). I've heard so many stories about stress delaying ovulation and women not getting pregnant until they stop worrying about getting pregnant to not hope that it may be true... I hope AF comes soon for you and you get a BFP in the very near future!
Leelee06 from GP
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